What I notice is that she is back and back in an unusual way. She must have developed a night life because these days she is not sitting on the couch next to me at night but rather is climbing out of bed with me in the morning. It used to be that she was an early morning sleepy head and I could get my day started without her obnoxious presence. But now? Now she is happy to push me out of bed and hang around, hovering over me as I attempt to get my day on track. She smothers me while I do my exercise routine, and scowls when I complete the walk or the crunches. She gleefully jumps when she sees that the house is a mess and I am chastising myself for not staying on top of the housework. She smiles big time when I sigh in discouragement at the long day ahead or the frigging fog hanging in the oak tree. She LOVES it when I trudge out to the garage, backpack on and shoulders stooped, pull out my bike and head off to work. This is her quintessentially joyful moment.
Odd thing is, she doesn't actually come to work with me. She tries. I know she tries. But I think is afraid of that place. Or something. Maybe there just isn't room for her there. There is so much activity, so many people to whom I need to answer, so much going on and she can't find me in the busy-ness of work. Ha! I disappear from her view! I wonder where she goes during the workday.
And after work? After work, she must be bugging someone else because she leaves me alone. When I get home from work, I can chillax without her. Yes, she is still makes me her biggest priority on Sundays after about noontime. Ugh. But I know her and I actually make room for her on the couch. How do you shove someone away who has been there on Sundays since you were in second grade?
I am going to watch her this fall. I am going to see if anything changes about her. She still wears that funky dress and really should be wearing a bra. Those old lady shoes need to go. I wonder if I can persuade her to try some cool boots? Maybe I just need to accept her just the way she is.
Some recent art work:
|Blood, Skin, and Bones #1|
|Blood, Skin, and Bones #2|