Toe the Line

    So I've been talking to my mind lately before falling asleep at night.  I've been saying, "C'mon , mind, give me something with which to work.  Give me some cool dreams that I can interpret to my heart's content."  I was thinking something like cosmic dreams with symbolism galore.  For example, over the years, I have dreamed of my grandfather's house over and over again.  Things have taken place in my dreams which, trust me, never really happened (think little brothers and race cars).  And things have happened in my dreams which really COULD have happened (think big brothers and Bubble Up).  There is a house which returns to my dreams from time to time.  It is palatial and has a whole wing upstairs that is not known to anyone but me.  You have to access this part of the house by climbing a bunk bed sort of ladder and crawling through an attic but then you enter this peaceful, spacious, airy studio apartment sort of place.  There is comfortable furniture and big windows (with classic lattice panes) that have hinges and open up like doors.  There is a fantastic balcony which has a view of a lush and brightly colored flower garden. I know these dreams are packed with meaning but, for me, the meaning is obscured.  And, sadly, no house dreams have shown up at the nighttime movie house in my head.

     So last night my dream notebook finally got used.  I woke up around 1:30 and realized that Bingo! my mind was just speaking to me in a dream.  Thing is, it was very direct and to the point.  All I remembered was a huge sign that said, "Proceed with Caution."  So, I think to myself, well, that's not much to go on.  That's about as direct as you can get.  But I dutifully scribble it down (really, I can barely read it in the morning), take advantage of the opportunity to pee, and crash asleep again.  About two hours later I wake up again.  Bingo!  More messages from my mind!  This time there is also a sign AND a voice reading the sign:  "You should toe the line.  You have shoes."  And that's how it was spelled.  I don't know about you, but I always
thought that it would be "tow the line"  as in pull it behind a car, truck, or boat.  But maybe it is "toe the line" as in put your toes on the starting line.  Whatever.  The message was clear and, frankly, not a welcome one.  Damn!  I have been told to "toe the line" all my fucking life.  I do it well.  I demand a re-deal.  I want a new message.